That's difficult, though perhaps not for the reasons Neo might be thinking at all. ]
i do not mind that but
[ The text lingers on that 'but' for a while before Chizuru manages to find the right words to type on. ]
i think our cases may be slightly different i am used to this form or looking this way whichever way you want to put it as far as i know i have never in my life walked around looking that other way so it would actually feel kind of strange to me you know ? as far as i am concerned the way i look right now is who i am i even have a hard time consciously making myself look different from this
[because that was a helpful opening for her. She'd wanted her friend to understand a little better... well...]
Just so you know I'm a teensy bit the same way. The way you see me? It developed over time, but I've looked this way for so long? This sort of 'picture perfect' self image is just how I'm used to appearing to most. So, for it to turn off my aura has to deplete or I have to intentionally turn it off. I think it might still be a lot easier for me than you, though.
So why don't we go with "We can always be ourselves around each other?" And not actually expect it to happen?
[ Chizuru does have to consdier all of this for a moment. Not because she's about to shoot down her friend's idea or anything, but.. it's just a little strange to think about. Sure, she can see some parallels between her situation and Neo's, but on the other hand, she can also see where it feels entirely different.
Still.. ]
would that make you feel comfortable ?
[ Chizuru can't help but ask it. That's the most important thing to her, after all. Her friend's comfort. ]
I think I'd like to do whatever makes us both most comfortable. But maybe just maybe we can try it out sometime, where we can be our "True selves." You know, so we can take a moment to accept that part of each other?
[Either way, she'd probably try to remember not to be under disguise a little bit more often, for no other reason than it would get her to worry less.]
[ Granted, this is Chizuru. Considering how agreeable she is, she probably would have agreed no matter what Neopolitan was proposing here - especially since she's such a close and important friend. ]
i am not sure i can fully make myself look like that on command yet but i could try sometime when we are together
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That's difficult, though perhaps not for the reasons Neo might be thinking at all. ]
i do not mind that
but
[ The text lingers on that 'but' for a while before Chizuru manages to find the right words to type on. ]
i think our cases may be slightly different
i am used to this form
or looking this way
whichever way you want to put it
as far as i know i have never in my life walked around looking that other way
so it would actually feel kind of strange to me you know
?
as far as i am concerned
the way i look right now is who i am
i even have a hard time consciously making myself look different from this
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[because that was a helpful opening for her. She'd wanted her friend to understand a little better... well...]
Just so you know I'm a teensy bit the same way.
The way you see me? It developed over time, but I've looked this way for so long?
This sort of 'picture perfect' self image is just how I'm used to appearing to most.
So, for it to turn off my aura has to deplete or I have to intentionally turn it off.
I think it might still be a lot easier for me than you, though.
So why don't we go with "We can always be ourselves around each other?"
And not actually expect it to happen?
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Still.. ]
would that make you feel comfortable
?
[ Chizuru can't help but ask it. That's the most important thing to her, after all. Her friend's comfort. ]
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But maybe just maybe we can try it out sometime, where we can be our "True selves."
You know, so we can take a moment to accept that part of each other?
[Either way, she'd probably try to remember not to be under disguise a little bit more often, for no other reason than it would get her to worry less.]
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[ Granted, this is Chizuru. Considering how agreeable she is, she probably would have agreed no matter what Neopolitan was proposing here - especially since she's such a close and important friend. ]
i am not sure i can fully make myself look like that on command yet
but i could try sometime when we are together
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I probably have an easier time than you do, even if it's not easy for either of us.
Still, I appreciate that you're trying.
[Honestly? It was good for her that someone was trying to get her to live outside of her illusions...]