( what does she think? honestly, way too much. there's so many thoughts that overlap the other; that contradicts the other. and with the dead chiming in with their own opinions, it's hard to make up her mind. so she replies with a small shrug and her tone to match her softness. )
I dunno. ... I dunno what to think of anything. If he's been lying or if Vi's been lying o-or both. ( a pause; again sounding so broken. ) I'd hope being in a place like this the answer would jump right at me, but... I'm still confused.
Ya'll say the past is the past but it's hard to put it behind ya when it's always in your face.
Well.. It's not like you need to have the past figured out so neatly or quickly either. [ Chizuru gently assures.
Especially when said past sounds so complicated. Or perhaps multi-faceted is a better word. Where Jinx can see so many sides to everything, or hears about so many sides to anything, that it gets hard to realise what's the truth anymore. Or what she should believe.
It's not a position Chizuru envies, and for now she does all she can do - just hold Jinx, just let the other lie in her lap like this, Chizuru's hand playing with the blue hair. Even if she can't sort out the other girl's past for her, she can at least comfort her. ]
And if we have anything here.. It's time, right?
[ Especially now Chizuru knows people don't leave here so quickly. She's slowly inching closer to the point where she's been here for a year already, and she's well aware of this fact. ]
You can slowly think about it. And slowly figure it out. If anyone expects you to suddenly have a quick answer and you don't, just come flee to me, alright? [ Because Chizuru knows she herself would never have such expectations of Jinx. She wouldn't want to put that sort of pressure on her shoulders. ] Then we can figure it out together. Or you can just try to calm down with me.
[ Look, if Chizuru is going to be the trial girlfriend, this service is the least she can offer.
It's something she wants to be able to do for the other in the first place, anyway. ]
... Same goes for you, okay? Promise you'll run to me if somethin' or someone treats you the way you don't like?
( she shifts one more time to peer up at the other girl; this time with a warm smile on her face. jinx seems to be doing a lot better and in a more healthier mental state from moments ago. it continues to amaze her that simply sitting down and communicating can really do wonders in situations. and hopefully, she'll remember to do that when she is in a heated and sudden moment. )
yes!! we can probably wrap it up here or with your tag, they can just have stayed comfy c:
[ Granted, it'll take a lot before Chizuru is truly at the point where she thinks that she really doesn't like something.. so even though she will keep herself to that promise, some may say she should probably go to Jinx a little earlier than that. She just puts up with too much.
Still, since Chizuru herself very much means this promise, she just smiles down at Jinx. ]
Though I don't think there's much you have to worry about here. Everyone is really nice to me.
cozy and comfy until the end of time. or jinx fucks something up.
( now feeling so much at ease, jinx continues to rest against her with every so often idling talking about nothing. the lovely cozy lofi christmas music resumes on and her spider monkey, also, relaxes and enjoys the atmosphere that's being set.
next month will be a different ball game when the two of them become official. and jinx can only hope her "jinx" won't make a mess of things. maybe it will, maybe it won't. looks like she will have to wait and see. )
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I dunno. ... I dunno what to think of anything. If he's been lying or if Vi's been lying o-or both. ( a pause; again sounding so broken. ) I'd hope being in a place like this the answer would jump right at me, but... I'm still confused.
Ya'll say the past is the past but it's hard to put it behind ya when it's always in your face.
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Especially when said past sounds so complicated. Or perhaps multi-faceted is a better word. Where Jinx can see so many sides to everything, or hears about so many sides to anything, that it gets hard to realise what's the truth anymore. Or what she should believe.
It's not a position Chizuru envies, and for now she does all she can do - just hold Jinx, just let the other lie in her lap like this, Chizuru's hand playing with the blue hair. Even if she can't sort out the other girl's past for her, she can at least comfort her. ]
And if we have anything here.. It's time, right?
[ Especially now Chizuru knows people don't leave here so quickly. She's slowly inching closer to the point where she's been here for a year already, and she's well aware of this fact. ]
You can slowly think about it. And slowly figure it out. If anyone expects you to suddenly have a quick answer and you don't, just come flee to me, alright? [ Because Chizuru knows she herself would never have such expectations of Jinx. She wouldn't want to put that sort of pressure on her shoulders. ] Then we can figure it out together. Or you can just try to calm down with me.
[ Look, if Chizuru is going to be the trial girlfriend, this service is the least she can offer.
It's something she wants to be able to do for the other in the first place, anyway. ]
END SOON???
( she shifts one more time to peer up at the other girl; this time with a warm smile on her face. jinx seems to be doing a lot better and in a more healthier mental state from moments ago. it continues to amaze her that simply sitting down and communicating can really do wonders in situations. and hopefully, she'll remember to do that when she is in a heated and sudden moment. )
yes!! we can probably wrap it up here or with your tag, they can just have stayed comfy c:
[ Granted, it'll take a lot before Chizuru is truly at the point where she thinks that she really doesn't like something.. so even though she will keep herself to that promise, some may say she should probably go to Jinx a little earlier than that. She just puts up with too much.
Still, since Chizuru herself very much means this promise, she just smiles down at Jinx. ]
Though I don't think there's much you have to worry about here. Everyone is really nice to me.
cozy and comfy until the end of time. or jinx fucks something up.
( now feeling so much at ease, jinx continues to rest against her with every so often idling talking about nothing. the lovely cozy lofi christmas music resumes on and her spider monkey, also, relaxes and enjoys the atmosphere that's being set.
next month will be a different ball game when the two of them become official. and jinx can only hope her "jinx" won't make a mess of things. maybe it will, maybe it won't. looks like she will have to wait and see. )