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[tealeafs]

[ Instinctively she almost wants to ask why she'd be lying about that, but.. well, then Chizuru remembers what Jinx told her last time around. The way she seemed so wary about other people, saying they just hurt you..

Someone must have hurt her that way, right? By lying to her about important stuff like this. The thought alone threatens to break Chizuru's heart. ]

of course i am not lying
i have no reason to
i mean sometimes i get a little flustered when i talk to you but that is not such a bad thing
i like being around you

[opheliac]

ok.
ure fun to bother
so mutual.

[tealeafs]

[ ...

Being fun to bother is.. a good thing, right? Chizuru is so new to the concept of friendship - having only really had one or two friends ever back home, and even those were relatively recent - that she's not too sure, but she thinks it sounds like a good thing..

Especially when it means she can talk to Jinx. ]

in that case i will do my best to be a lot of fun to bother

[ Is Chizuru serious about that? Is she joking? Who knows, it's hard to read tone into text, and even more so with Chizuru's writing style. ]

in fact if you want to bother me right now you can
if it will help you forget about all that stuff with miss vi
i would rather want you to have fun than to have to think about all that

[opheliac]

consider it DONE!
so hows ur day? what have u been up to? what does ur username mean? and how old are u?

[tealeafs]

[ Oh gosh, that's a lot of questions at once. And of course Chizuru is going to attempt to answer them all right away.

.. even though it takes a little bit for the reply to arrive, since Chizuru writes so very slowly, and there's a lot to write here.. ]

i think my day is about as alright as it can be here
so maybe not perfect but there is nothing too bad happening right now so it is alright

i have been trying to learn some self defense lately because i am worried about my chances in dangerous situations
which right now are very small
and i do not want to bother anyone

i set my username this way because someone who is not here anymore at this point told me that it might be a good way to catch the attention of a specific group of people
the shinsengumi in my name are those people
i was very close with them back home and i would like for them to know i am here if they would ever end up in this place
though they never have as far as i know

and i am twenty
i think
it is a little complicated but i am fairly sure that is it

[opheliac]

1. good to hear! if ur days get bad or smth let me know ok? u can stop by my place and take a breather.

( interesting enough, her treehouse is a very nice place for self-care and for the mental health. her omen made sure to have her home filled with nice incense, paintings with quotes, cozy lighting at night, and who knows what else. her spider monkey is more of her emotional/service animal than anything. he would rather take care of jinx than physical fight in battle. but when push comes to shove, he will. )

2. huh. i wont give up hope. ive been told i was here a few times before?? but i dont remember it. theyll show up.

3. u THINK ure 20? wait. are u actually in the hundreds but just forgot over time? are u immortal?

cw: mention of parental death

[tealeafs]

no
it is a little more complicated than that i suppose

[ Re: that last thing, that is. It feels like the most pressing thing for Chizuru to reply to here, though her thoughts do linger for a moment on how kind it is that Jinx is offering to share her space with Chizuru when she needs it..

Maybe she'll have to take her up on the offer one day. I-If Chizuru ever feels up to actually asking other people for help without being a burden, anyway.

But the last part is definitely what requires more explanation, since she doesn't want to accidentally give Jinx the wrong idea. ]

it is just that my parents died when i was very young
young enough that i do not even remember their faces or what they were like
and i was also taken away from where i lived with them
so i do not really have anything to remind me of how old i am
or anyone who knows for sure
my adoptive father told me my age from which i figure i am probably twenty now but i am not sure if he even knew for sure what my age was

[opheliac]

oh.

( a pause but then she types again: )

my parents died when i was young too.
dont rly remember their faces either.
vi prob remembers them more than me.

idk by the looks of u. u look like ure around my age. im 18. so 20 sounds good to me.

[tealeafs]

right?
that feels about right to me too

[ Even if some people say she looks a little younger than she really is. S-She can't help having a bit of a babyface..!!

Though Chizuru is aware there's something much more important to focus on now. ]

i am sorry to hear that you went through the same thing too
of course i do not know what it was like for you
but to me it feels a little strange when you know you had a father and a mother and you do not even know what they looked like

[opheliac]

i guess.
i have a new pops so. its fine.

[tealeafs]

[ .. oh.

The answer is a little short, and with how meek Chizuru is, it kind of makes her want to dive back into a shell like a turtle. Did she say too much? Maybe Jinx doesn't want to talk about this. Maybe she's only hurting the other.

Chizuru's thoughts spin themselves into a panic, and it takes a few moments before she writes back a reply, hoping that maybe this topic is a little bit better for the other then - as Chizuru quickly shoves her own worries about her parents under the rug. Maybe it's better to not talk about those after all. ]

i am glad you have a new one then
you deserve people who care about you

that is why i hope things between you and your sister will end up okay too
you also deserve each others care
this place is really scary on your own after all
and it can also be kind of lonely that way

[opheliac]

this place hadn't scared me yet!
in fact
this place should fear me.

but
if u ever get scared, u can run to me.

[tealeafs]

[ There's a bit of topic dodging going on here, isn't there.

Chizuru is pretty sure she's spotting some of it, anyway, though she doesn't call it out, especially after the internal kicked puppy response she had only a moment ago. Try to focus on the good here, she tells herself. ]

would that not be a bother though?
i am pretty sure you probably have your own stuff to deal with
what if you would not have time to protect me?
what if i showed up at a bad moment?
i would not want you to think of me as annoying

[opheliac]

ure too cute to annoy me. and im nowhere near like vi who is miss popular w/ a million goody goody friends.

i have plenty of room for u, dont worry with that pretty face of urs. thats how u get wrinkles u know.

[tealeafs]

my face is not all that pretty

[ Oh, gosh.

How does she properly express the strength of this statement. What was she told to use again in these situations-- ]

!

!!

!!!!!!!!!!

[ Nailed it. She is becoming a texting genius just yet. ]

but as long as you are sure
i would love to come over whenever
maybe i could bring something to eat too if it is not during some pressing dangerous time

[opheliac]

i spent a lot of times doing stake outs back home. having to ppl watch b/c i have to.
but w/ u?
i got to be careful.
b/c looking at u, i get rly lost and distracted.

( oh she is giggling madly over the texts she sent. and jinx can't wait to know what her reaction to THAT is. it's going to be so lovely to read. )

id love that!
we can have some girl talk. brush each others hair. give out beauty tips. just normal girl things.
and ill keep my hands to myself too. pinky promise.

[tealeafs]

i think it will be hard to both keep your hands to yourself and brush my hair though
you need hands to hold brushes after all

[ .. thanks for pointing out the obvious, Chizuru. She's not being pedantic here, though, she just.. figures that maybe it slipped Jinx' mind for a moment! Clearly. Obviously. ]

so you can put your hands near me
or on me if you have to
after all i trust you miss jinx so i am sure it will be fine

though i am really not sure how i distract you at all
is it something i do
?
i can stop doing it if that is the case
i would never want to make things more difficult for you

[ Apparently half of Jinx' text just went straight over Chizuru's head, huh. Between the hands thing and the 'get lost and distracted' part.. Chizuru is just too pure and genuine to think about it any other way. ]

[opheliac]

( oh. if jinx was really diabolical. but luckily for chizuru, jinx has a heart despite being a mass murder. strange how a person can have both things. and it possibly why people tend to be split when it comes to jinx. she is a monster but on another hand, she can be kind, too. )

u rly dont know what flirting is do u?

[tealeafs]

[ . . . . . .

Hang on. There's not a super long delay before the next text arrives, but there's definitely a small one, like Chizuru had to suddenly think about something.. or realise something.

Or just reread that last text once more. ]

were you flirting with me

[opheliac]

since we've met. and now the cat is out of the bag, ill have to come up w/ more subtle way to mess w/ u.

[tealeafs]

wait
why were you flirting with me

[ There's a small pause. Maybe Chizuru is thinking about it, because she kind of realises Jinx is already giving away the reason in the rest of what she says, right..?

But maybe she doesn't want to think about that. ]

just to mess with me
?

[ To put it in Jinx's own words. ]

[opheliac]

i like the way you blush and get embarrassed. its cute. ure cute. just wanted to see it more.

[tealeafs]

i am not cute
!!!!!!!!!!!!!

also i think everyone would react like that if you told them things like that
i cannot be unique in that
it is all just very flustering to hear

[opheliac]

then i guess ill have to keep calling u cute until u accept my compliment.
im up for the challenge.
i have nothing but time here.

[tealeafs]

if i am allowed to ask as much
then i would like to ask why it is so important for me to accept it